Monday, March 22, 2010

My sensible side!

There is a huge part of me that wishes I wasn’t sensible.  Then there is the sensible part of me that realises that life just isn’t that simple. 

If I wasn’t sensible I would throw caution to the wind and give up my job and spend the next few months of my life turning writing into a career.  The sensible part of me knows I am already in debt and have a mortgage to pay.  So my part time job is really the minimum I need to do to stay afloat.  I guess I have to be glad that finally I have got round to spending my spare time on trying to create some path into a writing career for myself.

It is just now any time at work I feel a bit restless.  My job is perfect for what I need, it has routine, it is not complex and I am managing to fit things round it well.  But there is also the notion I’d rather be at home knocking out a 1000 words every day.  Alas the 1000 words won’t pay the bills though.  They may also never come to anything but I have decided to knock those kind of thoughts out of my head.  They are the ones that stop you writing them in the first place.  So I need a little blind faith, hoping that around paying the bills and the mortgage I find enough time to start producing the volumes of work I hope to produce. 

Today has sadly been a wash-out.  I was up at 4 in the morning for the third night in a row struck down by period pains.  This is not something I have been cursed with since my teenage years and it has been an unpleasant few nights.  After being up for some time I finally managed to get back to bed and didn’t merge again until 11 giving me just enough time for a bath and hair wash before heading off to work.  Meeting the girls after work and loving the fact I can for once but it means nothing much else will get done today.

Tomorrow I am working in the morning and will finish at 2 but have to go to the doctor’s to get my immunosuppressant tablets.  As always health remains my number one priority.  So in the short amount of time I must try and do something! 

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